(Somewhat) Unemployed

I was the donkey that didn't realize the size of the pack he was carrying until the horse next to him asked if it was heavy.

When I started my journey to become an educator, teaching what I do and inspiring and mentoring students, I didn't honestly expect I'd end up here.  At least not so fast.  Despite my own personal knowledge that the part-time hours I desired couldn't be offered by current employer, my heart still sank with the confirmation that I had to make a choice:  give up what I've known and loved for a third of my life (and leave my friends at the clinic) to pursue a dream and take on a new role I believe I was born to play.

And so here I am: "between jobs".  Not unemployed since I still have two courses I'm teaching, but I'm currently seeking part-time hours and as a back up plan, getting information on setting myself up as a contract locum (freelance RVT.)

While all this was going on, I was also preparing for taking on twice the course load I had before, training for a very unique race and trying to keep up my end of things on the homefront (mowing, cooking, etc.)  I have been stuck in a cycle that I wasn't sure how to pull out of.  Working, teaching, training, searching.  Lots of "ings" there, but most of all disappointing and draining.

I have an interview this week.  The first one out of half a dozen resumes I've sent out.  (Admittedly also the only one that was actually advertising for a position.)

How does it feel to be semi-employed?  Exciting, frightening, liberating, stressful.  I can't speculate about what's to come.  I can dream about it and enjoy the scenarios I make up in my head, but I have to stay focused and create my path.

For now, I'll settle with creating some dinner.